Category Archives: Grandma

Anchor

As her and I held hands the last night we were together my mind wandered and swam through a murky water of emotions. Drowning deeper in my fear, anxiety, sadness, frustration.. her hand was an anchor to mine. Barely conscious, her hand would squeeze mine abruptly, pulling me from the murkiness into clear view. Reminding […]

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My Dream

Yesterday was my grandma’s memorial. The night before, I had a dream. In my dream I was in a room with family and friends. I was in the corner by myself just watching everyone and absorbing it all in. As I scanned the room and the people my eyes fell upon my grandma. She was […]

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Christmas

Christmas snuck up on me this year! With the engagement and being with my grandma so often I totally lost track of time. Last year I was done shopping the day after Thanksgiving.. This year, I started the core of my shopping on the 22nd and was up until 2 on Christmas eve wrapping. As […]

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Grandma

This morning my Grandma went to be with Jesus. The fight is over and she has won.She is perfect, she is whole, she knows secret things, she is beautiful, she is with her mother, she is with her best friend, and she is in the presence of an all knowing and forever and deeply loving […]

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Grandma’s Hands

*someone sent this to me today* Grandma, some ninety plus years, sat feebly on the patio bench. She didn’t move, just sat with her head down staring at her hands. When I sat down beside her she didn’t acknowledge my presence and the longer I sat I wondered if she was OK. Finally, not really […]

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Just like that…

Just hours ago someone died in the hospice room across the hall from my Grandma’s room…Just like that life on earth was over. Body and soul were separated.What kind of life did they live? Who have they left behind? What were their last thoughts? Were they surrounded by family? Were they ever married? What was […]

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Thanksgiving.

I know this blog has been a place of romance and happiness lately but in my attempts to make this a place of authenticity I must write what’s on my heart tonight. From my journal… 9/27 Thanksgiving Dear God, Tonight I come to you with a tender, confused, and torn heart. I know you are […]

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